Saturday, June 12, 2010

Early

12 and a half years ago I got a little startled when, 30 days early, I went into labor with my twin girls.   After my water broke [and I didn't even call my midwife--just waited for the labor pains to kick in--cuz I figured, "what's the big deal?  I can handle this.  I have prepared, I am ready to give birth."] I labored at home until the pains were unbearable, made it to the hospital to be reprimanded by my docs (who said I was--ahem--dilated to a 10) and two hours later pushed out two screaming, fussing, bird like little things.  The first came out milky white with a shock of black hair;  the second (a mere 8 mins later) was streaked in red with that same shock of black hair.  I was relieved, exhausted and frankly a bit bewildered!  I was supposed to take these home with me?

Today finds me relieved, sleepy (but not exhausted) and still bewildered!  Where did the time go? (And yes, I'm glad I took them home with me.) Today is the first day of Girls' Camp.  My babies--who still have a shocking amount of hair--are standing in the parking lot next to a huge white charter bus acting calm, cool and collected (though internally they're jumping up in down, in a very calm, cool sort of way saying, "I can't believe we really get to go!").



They can handle this.  They've prepared, they are ready.  And me?  I am happy for them.  I am excited for the adventures that await them.  And--this completley startled me--trying not to be the only mom in the parking lot who's balling out her eyeballs.

Had to leave early.


*Does this ever get any easier or do you always feel emotional about your kids reaching milestones their whole darn lives?

8 comments:

Courtney said...

Where does the time go?

Sarah said...

I know exactly how you feel. I've got the same feelings about Molly going to camp this year. I hope your girls have a great time!

Anne Marie said...

I can't believe your labor story...10 cm dilated when you arrived at the hospital! You are definitely not the only mama feeling weepy about this whole growing up deal. Taylor's leaving for scout camp in a few weeks, and I have never had him away for more than a night at a time, and I'm going to miss him intensely. I just don't feel ready to let him go bit by bit over the next 6 years.

Nancy said...

In the blink of any eye. Too fast if you ask me, I bet they will have a great time. And it will be fun for you to see them come home and hear their stories.

Angela said...

I'm so excited for them! They're going to have so much fun.

pam said...

Not only did you take them home 12 and a half years ago, but you did a marvelous job raising them. The fact that you were crying about them leaving for girls' camp must stem from being dropped off at BYU with Karen and having her mother cry all the way back to Phoenix.

Becky said...

Mom, that was a really nice thing to say. You are a good mom.

Charie and Jonathan Francom said...

Wow I cannot believe they are old enough to go to camp. I work with the Beehives in my ward and that kind of blows my mind to think of your girls going to camp for the first time. What a feeling! So glad you can go through all of this stuff and I can prepare myself by reading your blog.