I liked my early thirties--a lot--even my mid 30's were a-okay.
But I will admit to having a hard time with this late 30's.
This is the first year in my life that I haven't been excited about my birthday.
And I can't figure out why. Why am I having a hard time with this?
I know I'm still young, that I still have my whole life ahead of me, so to speak.
Is it my culture places to much emphasis on youth? That I can see the wrinkles on my forehead stay there even after I stop smiling now.
Is it because I'm afraid of my ultimate death and demise? Cuz that still feels like a long ways away. . .
Am I concerned about the s-s-s-l-o-o-o-w-w-w-w loss of functionality and abilities and that someday my downdog will be wimpy or my knees willquiver and shake during Warrior Two pose? That I might forget people's names--or worse--forget to get dressed in the morning without a sign on the door reminding me to put all my clothes on. (ahem--that did happen to my very own Grandma)
I think I'm getting warmer.
So I need a paradigm shift.
Something to look forward to so that I can still enjoy having my birthdays without rolling my eyes or grimacing and saying things like "we're not going to tell you how old I am anymore."
But I'm still searching for what that mental shift is all about.
I do look forward to being a Grandma someday. That sounds really fun. But that had better not happen any time soon, so in the mean time, I need something exciting about being in these middle years. This my dears is why people by motorcycles in for their 40th birthday. Too young for grandkids, but needing a little thrill. I am not exactly a motorcycle kind of person, so if you come up with any other great ideas, do share! I'm needing a little Birthday Something-Something!
2 comments:
Happy Birthday, Becky! You are one fit, gorgeous mama and have many years ahead of you to enjoy! I know what you mean....as I inch closer to 40, I'm not sure that I'm liking the sound of the number so much. Lovely pictures of food in the post above.
you are funny, and lucky for you and your cute genes you look much younger than your actual age, so that's good, right? I don't like the aging thing either, and am noticing quite a few wrinkles myself. But, I do think you like me are enjoying where you're at so it can only continue to get better, right? Happy Birthday Sister!
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